All I want for Christmas....

and the next long while - is this love. I've gots so many things to be thankful for. The peace that I am starting to discover by abiding in Him; my friends that are ever so fun and supportive; all the new friends that I have made in the past year; all the activities, small groups and ministries that I am doing; the ability to enjoy my time off and picking up guitar all over again; and the ability to heal (for my damaged ankle) as well! These are all the blessings from the One and only! :)

For the past couple of days, I have been reading Emotionally Healthy Spirituality & Walking with God and I've been thinking - I couldn't visually picture in my head how Christ looks. I have seen pictures in books, paintings, on the internet... and even in movies... (but I consider them as unreliable sources...) so on friday night - I went to bed honestly feeling a little bit frustrated... Fastforward two days, 2 hours of walking through the dead sea scrolls exhibit at the ROM, at the very end - there was a section on Bibles! In the second last display, there was a 11th century Greek gospel book (that I consider an authentic source) and the page was flipped to John 1 with a very crisp and clear image of Christ! I was blown away by that, and I felt like God was saying - this is Me... :)

Wedding Dress...

Beautiful piano piece, intricate choreograph (by my favourite Shaun Evaristo AND Lyle Beniga!! especially at 3:26 - the wedding march remix), cute but sad story, very attractive MV girl, great fashion on Tae Yang... hhmm this makes a complete kpop vid haha... its been on billayyy's replayyyy for awhile now! - enjoy!

Can't help but wait...

Totally feeling this remix in everyway... the acoustic, the songs, the lyrics and the vocals... mmmm classssiccccc - enjoy!



On a more serious note, if you were asked to "wait patiently" for something, what would that mean to you? What are some of the things that we should "wait patiently" for and what are the things that we need to constantly get off our seats and chase for? Honestly, if I was to answer this question with my own knowledge or what is "acceptable" in this day and age I would say "wait patiently" is for cowards. Waiting patiently is a standstill, not going anywhere, not forward nor backwards. It would demonstrate the lack of proactiveness and initiative to at least try for what I want to achieve. That is how I truly feel... but I'm glad, that there is the Bible, the very Word of God, that reminds me...

For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay. Habakkuk 2:3

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21

Thanks be to God, for reminding me that His purpose prevails... not what I want to do, not what I want to achieve or gain and definitely not my plans for my own personal gain.. but instead, I must patiently wait upon the Lord for His plan... And no, that does not mean I will sit around, do nothing and it will be done.

Soooooo, what does this mean practically? I am still figuring that out but I know one thing: to love Him and to love others - finding work and build relationships that reflects my calling as a Christian.

Feelin' alive. . .

I still remember the question from small group: What is your dream job? I remember sharing w/ my group that I wanted to be a....

1) Prostar volleyball player
2) Prostar paintball player (haha)
3) Prostar snowboard racer
4) Prostar track racer (drifter?!)

but giving it more thought... I wish I can replicate myself (kage bunshin! hahaha) and just be at multiple places...to spend awesome catch up time with different people... I think that's when I truly feel "alive"....

One noteable mention for the weekend was: I realize I can learn a lot by listening patiently & putting myself in other's shoes. By having these heartfelt conversations, I can experience & 'feel' for their pain, struggles, difference in opinion, anger, disappiontments and doubts... What a high emo past coupla days BUT its time to settle down and get back to business :)

Happy early 24th tiffie, I had a great time hangin' and I hope you're not burnt out from hearing my vents haha